Meditation with Marita

Meditation is something I’ve tried before, but never with consistency and focus until I met Marita. Now that it’s been almost a year, I feel like it’s safe to say I have developed a new habit. Which has always been my goal. Since the beginning, this blog and my life choices have been focused on finding things that help me be a better person and make better choices for myself to benefit both my physical and mental health.

Marita introduced me to the idea of taking three breaths to bring my mind, my body, and my essence into alignment and working with a root to anchor me to the Earth and light from the Moon to connect me to it. When I first met Marita, they were someone who I had found on social media, and watched weekly as they offered chakra clearings and card readings with their partner.

When a class Marita was offering opened up, I decided that I needed to take it. From then on, I started meditating more often. Always with Marita, of course, because their voice is soothing and their inflection almost mesmerizing, but sometimes even on my own. Over time, I included more meditation in my daily practice, but it wasn’t so much that I felt attached to it externally, like it was something people did so I should do it, but more that I felt like it was something I wanted to be doing.

Over time, I learned more about Marita’s practices, their history as a non-binary BIPOC creator of offerings that elders from a variety of traditions had taught them.

I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to be getting from meditating, so I kept doing it, but I was doing it by rote and without an emotional connection. Until one time when Marita led a meditation on the night of the full moon. I followed along until I found myself drifting away. I was awake, but I was feeling completely free. I have never felt that kind of sensation before. I knew where I was and what I was doing, but I also felt like I had nothing more important to do than to breathe deep and slow and listen to Marita’s voice.

It was during that meditation that I finally ‘got it’ and had that moment everyone kept telling me I’d have, even though I kept insisting I hadn’t had it yet. I could feel myself just be, with no expectations and no attachment to anything other than my peace and my next breath.

I’m not going to say I felt at one with the universe, but that’s only because even to me that sounds like I’ve lost my mind a bit. In actuality, I felt the most calm and centered I’ve felt in a long time, and it kind of did feel like all was right with the world.

Now, I fully understand there are some people who will think this is all a crock, and if you ask me what a crock is, I’m going to feel old so just take it from me, it’s a thing, and it basically means it’s all bullsh*t. they are also likely to think that I’ve gone a little ‘woo woo’ as my friends call it. There are other people who will think ‘it took you long enough!’ What is most important though, is that when I meditate I feel like I’m making a healthy choice to improve my life and since that has always been my goal, I’m pretty proud of my growth.